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Notebook 11 True Life in God 77
May 18, 1987
(I've been at 6.30 to Holy Communion as
Jesus asked me. In the middle of it Jesus
started talking to me. I received the Bread
and in my mouth it felt like a lacerated
piece of flesh1 which had been ripped off
from scourging. Funny how I felt it
yesterday different; and today different. It
seemed like Jesus was giving me different
impressions.)
Jesus?
I am;
love Me, come close to Me; I will give
you different impressions every time you
receive Me; Vassula, I grieve when you
are distant to Me;
(It’s true. Sometimes when ‘the wave’ of
doubt covers me, I refuse to talk to Him or
see Him, saying to myself that it’s not Him,
and I avoid His image, avoid talking with
Him, avoid all what He’s taught me. I’m
trying to convince myself that my
imagination played tricks.)
you are grieving Me, beloved; you are
offending Me when you block Me out
and seem so far away; understand that
the devil is behind all this; he is
desperate and wants you to believe that
you are only imagining all the graces I
have given you; he wants you to forget
all My Heavenly teachings; he wants to
drag you back to him;
when you seem so far from Me, I fear,
I fear for you; when a shepherd sees one
from his flock wander away would he
just sit? a good shepherd would rush to
it, pick it up and bring it back;
when I see you wandering away, I will
not wait; I will rush to you and fetch
you; I will draw you closer to Me; little
one, I will cover you with my cloak when
1 Jesus was showing me that Holy Communion was
not just plain bread that we are taking, but that
indeed it is Christ’s Body we receive.
you are cold; I will feed you, lift you
close to my Heart when distressed; what
will I not do for you;
Jesus?
I am;
Why all these graces for me? Why?
let Me free to give to whom I please;
But I don’t want to be different from others!
Vassula, you will be receiving Me, let Me
use you; have I not told you that I will
liberate you?
I don’t understand.
I wish to liberate many souls from their
chains, chains of evil; I am using you as
an instrument; do not misunderstand
My Works; My appeal is not for you
only; My appeal of Peace and Love is for
all humanity!
Yes Lord, but I feel a bit uncomfortable
when friends know about this. I mean I feel
uncomfortable when some of them look and
say, “You are privileged.” I feel awful.
feel awful, daughter, for being chosen
because of your wretchedness; I have not
chosen you because of your merits; I
have told you already before, that your
merits are none and what comes out of
the Lord's mouth is but the Truth; come
often and repent to Me; remember I do
not favour you more than the rest of My
children;
I know, Jesus. I know that’s why I feel
embarrassed for You giving me this grace,
to call You anytime I wish.
Vassula, Vassula, I give even to the most
wretched; let your friends see how My
Heart is an abyss of Mercy and
Forgiveness; let them see how I raise
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