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Notebook 11 True Life in God 73
May 14, 1987
(Today what joy; in reading the life of St.
Teresa of Avila who had visions, I fell upon
a vision she describes of hell and I was very
pleased to find that her description fitted in
my description of hell that God gave me,
she explains it this way: "dark and closely
confined; the ground seemed to be full of
water which looked like filthy, evil-smelling
mud" ... etc. yes, the whole thing looked like
a grotto, low-ceiling ... my description is on
March 7, 1987.)
May 15, 1987
come, surrender; I delight to hear you
surrendering for in surrendering it
rejoices My Heart, little one! ask Me to
use you ...
Father, if I am of any use to You, use me
then!
I love you; come, do you wish to write?
I will write if it is Your wish.
do write then;
let it be known that I, Yahweh, willed
to enlighten you; your only recourse is
Me; My Heart is an abyss of Forgiveness
and Mercy; little one, as I have
enlightened you, so will I enlighten those
who turn to Me;
– Vassula come,1 be closer to Me, Will
you receive Me...
(Silence from my part.)
grieve Me not;
(Silence.)
be with Me, purify yourself; love Me;
(Silence.)
1 Jesus was now speaking to me.
grieve Me not, beloved...
(Silence.)
will you receive Me? ... fill Me with joy
and be with Me; love Me, I love you;
come to Me more often; receive Me more
often; I love you; will you pray with Me?2
wound Me not,
(I consented.)
Beloved Father,
purify me with Your Son’s Blood,
Father,
purify Me with your Son’s Body,
Beloved Father,
hold away the evil spirit
that now tempts me,
amen;
(As Jesus was writing it, I was saying it.
I suddenly realised, it was like I woke up
after Jesus’ prayer. I realised what was
happening from the beginning of the
message of today. Jesus was calling me to
Holy Communion but I was pretending I
did not understand. I even felt like
answering, no. I was hurting Him and yet I
was reluctant to reply, I made Him say it
explicitly. Jesus ran to my rescue, I felt I
was about to fall. Just after His prayer (He
prayed together with me), I realised that I
had an evil spirit pulling on me. Strange
feeling I had when I felt the evil spirit
release his grip on me when the words
came “Beloved Father, hold away the evil
spirit that now tempts me”.
Jesus had put so much force on my hand,
my hand felt very heavy, and at the same
time I felt His enormous and most powerful
strength sustaining me; like a most
powerful Giant. After the prayer it was like
I woke up.)
come nearer to Me; sanctify yourself; I
love you and I will sustain your falls; I
will not see you lost; a flower needs to be
2 Here I felt like saying: “Oh no, not again!”
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