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True Life in God

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I want to tell You what is bothering me,

probably everything I say or think is

wrong so whatever I do will be wrong. It’s

true I have no real support, by that I mean

I am here, writing messages I receive from

You. Now, others apparently had the same

as I. Other guidances or messages that

came from You to other people, but these

people were mostly in monasteries or

convents; they were surrounded by

religious, priests, bishops, etc. when this

supernatural approach was happening to

them, they were watched carefully,

followed closely, then it was easy to pass

the writings to the Superiors and from

there to the bishop and then to the Pope.

They all accepted it as coming from You.

I might be wrong, but it seemed easier

for them to accept it from one of their circle

whom they knew well and so it was edited;

at least parts of it. They were approved.

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Then here I am, I have approached priests.

They happen to be Catholic, for me, as a

Greek Orthodox by baptism, it does not

matter what they are, even if I was

Catholic and the priests would be

Protestant I am not selecting; we are all

Christians. Several priests know about it

now. Each one’s reaction differs from the

other like night and day. One of them to

this day says it’s Evil, in other words I’m

possessed, since I’m possessed by a spirit;

but I know it’s You God Almighty. Having

read a little he made up his mind and does

not want to ever change it. When he’ll

understand I’m not possessed, he’ll bring

up that it’s my subconscious. Anything but

You, then the reaction of another one was,

“yes continue writing because it’s divine

and from God”, so, he believes it’s God's

words; but is too busy to ask or even to

follow to find out the ‘suite’. This is what

amazes me, if he believes God is trying to

express a message, why then not bother

more and find out what it is?

A third priest was informed and listened

dutifully looking now and then at his watch

then, said, good, go on, it’s marvellous,

continue writing, I asked him to come any

time again and talk about it. I never saw

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And thus relieved for the Word can lay heavy.

him again. Then another priest was

informed, and he said, only reading a page

or two, “I don't want to give any opinion,

but we Catholics are warned that evil acts

in the same way too;

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not that I’m saying

it’s evil but we are told to be careful.” Fair

enough I said, but then since everybody

agrees on one thing, and that is: that it is

supernatural, why then not take it more

seriously, to understand and clarify it?

After all they are people who seek God,

the first one who said it’s EVIL then told

me, that God gives messages and there are

many, many books with those messages all

over the world, and it is very common;

there are so many guidances in the

supernatural way, so it is very common,

but mostly in their circle.

Another priest said they are called

Divine Revelations of the Heart and they

are from God; then he gave an address of

one prof. mystic whom I can find and talk

with. I know, that if I was ‘one of them’ I'd

have it easier. It’s just that I’m out of their

circle and my appearance too clashes.

I am Jesus; Vassula, lean on Me and

rest; era, O era have you given credits

before even glimpsing on My words? are

you seemingly glorifying Me and by

defending Me unwillingly deriding Me?

Vassula, I love you; lean on Me,

beloved;

Lord there are still other things, when I tell

You or give You my feelings of doubt, I’m

pretty sure I wound You, since I’m

doubting, and if I’m not doubting, and it is

not You in the guidance, I’m wounding You,

because I’m doing this, so whatever I’m

doing, I wound You, if I believe or not

believe it’s you, whatever I think, I hurt

you; and this makes me sad since I want to

be the last one that would wound You! I

suffer for this too.

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Maybe, but for how long? Until masses return to

God? Because masses already have and it’s the

beginning...

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