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Vassula, Vassula, taken by my own,
neglected by My beloved,1 come, honour
Me, love Me!
I love You, I cling on You. When will this
happen?
ah, Vassula, do not run in front of Me;
come, all in good time,
But You know Lord that I’m an outsider, a
nothing and not knowing what’s going on
where You are mentioning, then who would
want to see my papers (Your writings).
They will, if it reaches them, throw all the
writings in my face laughing, they will
probably throw it around me like confetti.
After all, who am I? Nothing but a
‘Professional Sinner’!
remember who is leading you! I am God,
do you remember what you said to your
friend, yes, the unbeliever? they were My
words: you are like a mouse running
away from a Giant; you are a speck of
dust;
(True, a friend of ours, an unbeliever,
received a message from God. He said to
me later on: “In half a minute this message
destroyed beliefs of 20 solid years. Why
should I, a Professional Sinner, get such a
message? But I will fight it. I will run
away.” I laughed! Then told him God’s
words.)
Vassula, trust Me,
Lord, I do, but it’s me that’s the problem.
Why do You trust me? You should not. My
Lord, I'm all good-will, yes, but as You
said, very weak. Don’t trust me! I’m very
sinful.
Vassula, you are ineffably weak; I knew
this from all Eternity; but be nothing, I
want you to be nothing, how else would I
manifest Myself alone if we were two? let
1 He said it in a very sad tone, like someone being
betrayed by his best friend.
Me free always and I shall act in you;
come lean on Me!
June 17, 1987
(Dhaka)
You make me aware of my wretchedness
and that you approached me in spite of my
wickedness and having absolutely no
merits for such graces given to me.
Comparing the saints, it’s obvious. Do You
understand then why the ‘wave of doubt’
comes? Just because of that; because of my
unworthiness; remember, You taught me
everything from scratch, and remember
how I in the beginning denied You,
knowing It’s You? You see what I mean?
When I have the ‘wave of doubt’ because of
the reasons above, I know I'm offending
You and hurting You. As You said once,
“you hurt Me when you forget who saved
you from darkness;”. On the other hand
my mind almost reels to understand, why
You come to a soul like me given a mission
of such importance, to someone who had to
start from scratch in Scripture, a 150%
sinner!
The more Your guidance goes on the
more miracles it gives. Total atheists are
bent, but You blessed It Lord, so I should
not feel surprised. One after another
unbeliever returns to You by reading It.
People who told me: “You'll NEVER make
me read one page of all this, I don’t believe
in anything but solids, money, business ...”,
these words ringing still in my ears, and to
see now this man keener than his wife (who
tried to convince him at first without
success) wanting all the editions of Jesus’
Guidance, saying that It gives him
tremendous peace. I never spoke to him,
since I am not good in ‘parole’. It just
happened: Jesus, of course. You’re
Wonderful!
it is I, Jesus, beloved Son of God; I have
been sending you all these books so that
you may believe in My Supernatural
Works; I have been feeding you My
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