Notebook 10 True Life in God 59 seconds in front of you; 1My daughter all these years I had been waiting for you to be in My so beloved Church; 2 Lord and Saviour You have indeed searched for me and found me and brought me to You and Your Church . It has been years .... You’ve been waiting years!! I remained before My Cross and everyone who came to worship Me I blessed in turn; (The Holy Cross had been placed in the middle of the Church and so everybody went by turn kissing It.) April 17, 1987 (At the end of Holy Mass on Good Friday, the priest distributes the flowers that covered Jesus’ tomb. He gives bunches to people. I received just three flowers in my hand; I understood this as a sign from God to remind me of the problem I had understanding the Holy Trinity. Two days went by and I did not write which I missed terribly as when I write like in meditation I contact and feel God very much.) My God, it’s been a long time! how long; Two days! 1 Strangely enough while the Procession of the Cross was going on, we had to move to give space to the priest who carried the Holy Cross (about two meters long) and the church boys with big candles following; because of the dimness the priest was not looking where he was going and went straight on me; realising it he stood for a few seconds in front of me, trying to see his way again; my cousin who was with me noticed this incident immediately. My heart raced as I could not back more, I faced the huge Cross and as behind me the crowd had lit candles I couldn't move! 2 I had not been in that Church since the baptism of my eldest son I think, fifteen years! two days, Vassula? and I, who waited years for you, what shall I say then? I’m speechless. Jesus, I'm sorry to have wounded You. Forgive me. come, I forgive you; all I wish from My beloved souls is to let Me arrest their heart for just a few minutes and let me pour into it My superabundant Love; (Jesus said this in such tenderness and love. Whenever God approaches me to give me an important long message the devil or his adepts attack me. I do not feel him physically but the only thing he is allowed to do in this guidance is manifest himself by writing, thus insulting me and cursing me. 3 Since I was taught by God to know the difference and recognise his words I usually avoid him to finish his word even, which infuriates him. If it escapes my notice God blocks my hand and it cannot write. This paper is from my note book. These attacks are always stronger when God's important message is about to be written. I have realised now the pattern ... so I don’t give up although I do feel hopeless at times.) April 23, 1987 (Sometimes I wonder what freedom is, before God’s call I was free too. I had my family life in harmony and having really no responsibility no cares, such as this message which crushes me and weighs on me, but then I was aloof from God. Suddenly, God held me ... In the beginning I did not like it, since I had no love for Him, but in a short time only (three months) after preaching to me He taught me to love Him. Now after eight months the whole Message is almost completed. 4 It’s weighing on me and I'm looking for somewhere where I can unload It, it is so 3 In a way it is a good sign, for he shows he exists, and that this revelation annoys him, to say the least. 4So I thought...
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