Notebook 14 True Life in God 113 July 30, 1987 (I’m still worried. Why can’t I feel God as before?) Jesus? I am; come, look at Me; look, yes; (I looked into God’s eyes and melted.) regardless of what you are have I not raised you and placed you in My Heart? Vassula, My Vassula will I ever forsake you? 1 reflect, I am Love and until I come to deliver you I will pour My Love into you; ela thipla mou, imé o Christos; 2 July 31, 1987 Vassula, come; I will clarify your groundless fears of desolation; it is insight I am teaching you, do not take this as abandonment from Me; write; I am giving you My grace to reach a higher degree of meditation while, at the same time, I am purifying your soul for this higher attainment; be assured, My beloved, that I am with you and never far; I am stimulating your love to Me and strengthening you; a deeper devotion and a fuller love for Me will be the results of all this; Vassula, I desire you to achieve this higher degree of meditation; you must grow; beloved remove all shadows of doubt from your mind – shadows that distress you; I want you to progress, I want your soul to attain perfection and purity; I want to advance your soul into this higher and more delicate light; your soul thus cleansed will be able to offer Me virtues shelled in perfection and purity; 1 He said this in so much sweetness that God only can talk in this way. 2 Greek: 'come near Me, I am Christ'. (Jesus was trying to reassure me and I somewhat felt better.) from meditation, you will reach in a higher level of contemplation; this aridity and feeling of desolation which leaves you to think ‘all is gone’, it is because I withdraw from you part of My Light; do not fear, though; be glad you feel the difference; by withdrawing part of My Light I reinforce your desire of seeking Me and thus I infuse you with more delicate Light in your intellect; yet, all Light is never totally withdrawn, for I always leave you with some Light for you to be able to see and follow it and to sustain you from stumbling; I give you this vigour to continue seeking Me more fervently than ever; seek in Me My desires; Vassula, I will never ever leave you; why, I am your Heavenly Father who wants you to grow and flourish and these are My Ways; have no fear but be alert, never fall asleep; be seeking from Me; you will learn, I am your Teacher; love Me, Vassula; smile at Me when you see Me and take My Hand when I give to you; have My Peace and trust Me; come I love you; O Father, thank You for relieving me and explaining to me all this. Thank you for Your teachings. I love You! August 4, 1987 (Back in Switzerland) (I’m almost fearing what I think is happening, is this the insight God talked about last week?) My God? I am, beloved; Am I understanding You correctly, Lord? you are! Love will make out of you, a mirror of reflections and agonies attuned
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