Notebook 16 True Life in God 141 I ask You to teach me to love You more and as You wish so that You can spare me and so that I may honour You. little one, I am your divine Teacher who will teach you; never doubt, never doubt of My Forgiveness; No Lord, I will not doubt. Make me worthy of You because of your Grace and approach to me, allow me to glorify you. Forbid me to sin and from constantly offending You with my sins, Beloved. bless Me; Jesus, I bless You. Father, I love You. at My Stations I desire to see you; Oh Jesus, how? I want to but how, with who, who will guide me? (From desperation my eyes filled.) reserve your tears for the time you will hear offences being said on account of My Mother; Oh Jesus, help me. daughter lean on Me, let Me instruct you, please Me by being pliant as you are, come, be near Me, I love you; I love You, Jesus. Have mercy on my ignorance. I have; delight Me and say: “Lord, let Me be your victim, the victim of your burning Love; I desire to worship You and You only, stretched on Your Cross with You, never looking left or right; I desire to quench Your thirst by earning souls for You; victim of Your Love I will be, I love You;” say it! (I said it.) from now on you will never leave My Heart, Vassula; select, Vassula; either your life or a victim’s life, select; Jesus I don’t want You to leave me. I want to be with You, at Your side. then you have chosen well, you will resemble Me, be a victim of Love; flower, you will flourish under My Light; I thank You, bless You, for all that You give me and for the compassion You have upon me. have My Peace, daughter; never forget My Presence; allow Me to rest in you, for this is My home; Jesus You make me happy and I learn from You. flower, I am your Master and God; come, us, we? Yes, Lord. October 6, 1987 (I felt poor. And I am. I am not pleasing God because of my ignorance and slowness to understand. I’m not happy with myself. He was so right about me as being “by far” the most wretched of His creatures. I hate now talking about how this has started, because I find I am talking about myself. It’s ugly, very ugly. But friends and people want to hear about how it started so I was obliged to explain and the more I went on I could not avoid despising every time I said something about myself, to the point that it made me decide that from now on I shall not explain how it started, thus I will avoid talking about myself. I thought they could find out from others. If they are curious, they will not be appeased by me. If they want to read because they believe, God will enlighten them. I shall not be my own witness. I shall leave everything in God’s hands. He makes the impossible possible, so
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