Notebook 94
True Life in God
969
O happy seed!
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were you to be sown in
Me, your harvest will be Paradise; were
you to grow in Me, you would blossom
and your spring flowers, since they
would blossom in Spring Himself, will
perfume the earth, and the earth, revived
by your aromatic fragrance, will utter its
first word: “Father!” and it will be saved;
You have won for Yourself
this rebellious heart of mine;
in Your lavish affection and in Your Love,
You have clasped
my filthy hands into Yours
drawing me close to You and in You,
breathing a new life in my soul;
and with a baptismal kiss,
You ended my rebellion;
O indescribable delight of my soul,
You visited me,
not daring to show me, in the beginning,
the immensity of Your Love,
lest my heart
would be too small to contain it;
You abstained
from revealing to me entirely
the ardour of Your Love
lest I would run away
in my human frailty; but then,
in the exuberance of Your Love,
You wedded me ....
You wedded me, despite
my great wretchedness and guilt,
wholly uniting me to Your Triune Holiness;
this free gift, given by Your Own Will,
given to an unworthy worm as myself,
baffles me still to this day ....
O Sunshine of my soul;
You who so delicately fed me
on curds and honey
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here You are now,
visiting the earth once more;
but the earth again mistrusts You
and refuses to welcome You;
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We are God’s seed.
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Symbolic description of ‘curds and honey’ is in this
context: purity, gentleness and tenderness.
My Beloved went down to His garden,
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to the bed of spices,
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to pasture His flock
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in the gardens,
and gather lilies;
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My Beloved came to call His Own Flock,
and gather lilies in the fields
who have no other care but to LOVE;
He came to gather His lilies
for His Own good pleasure;
Divine Wisdom visited the earth
to remind His Own
that there is but one theology,
that of contemplating You
in Your Triune Glory;
So let me be Your rose without thorns,
most delicate Bridegroom,
and You, my Living Water;
there, my stem placed
in this Living Water, will not die,
but will draw life and will live eternally
since I will be plunged
in the Eternal God Himself.
You have been favoured by the odour of
My fragrance,
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and I allowed you to
contemplate My Holy Face which shone
on you;
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no, this memory of My Holy
Face will never dissipate from your
memory; I transcend earth and heaven
in majesty and splendour and My Name
and no other is sublime, raising the poor
in spirit to join Me; I move in them and
they move in Me; I have, out of My
exuberant Love, as I have inspired you to
call it, offered you free gifts in
abundance, for I am only interested in
those who fear Me
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and in those who
rely on My Love;
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The earth.
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Souls.
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To feed us spiritually.
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And turn us like the lilies; make us pure.
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His Holy Presence.
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Immediately the vision of His Divine Face came up
in the surface of my memory. It remains in my body
only because of the Holy Spirit’s divine power.
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Ps. 147:11.
© Vassula Rydén