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Vassula how I love you; will you kiss My
Feet after doing the Stations of the
Cross?
Yes Lord, I will.
come, do not forget My Presence; you
seem to neglect Me these days;
My God, give me the strength to manage
everything. I want to please You as You
know, but my capacity is limited. Will You
forgive me?
O Vassula, how I love you; I forgive you;
write what you saw!
(Jesus, in telling me that I neglect Him,
looked sad and grave. When I asked Him to
forgive me, His Divine Face lit up and with
a bright smile, showing me His dimples, He
opened His Arms wide, so that I fall in His
embrace.)
forgiveness will always be given without
the slightest hesitation; and I made you
discern Me fully so that you are able to
tell My children the way I forgive;
come, we, us;
(Jesus in saying this made a movement
with His index finger, like a Teacher,
warning me.)
December 7, 1987
I lead you in an ‘unorthodox way’, but I
am God and I will choose any way, the
hours are fleeing, the time is near; I will
lead you like I wish, Vassula;
December 8, 1987
(After reflecting what can await me I
started to panic. These were moments of
extreme weakness. I was very disturbed.)
My God, can’t I love You like any other
normal being in a normal way? Can’t You,
Beloved God, guide me in a normal way
instead of this way? Oh God, I feel so much
responsible with all this. It’s a torture to
know that in spite of all the graces You are
bestowing on me, I remain wretched and so
sinful, wicked. Why Lord, why do You keep
me? I can't face You any more; I'm not
worthy of You; let me go in my corner. Do
not have me so near You.
why? why?
My God, no, I'll follow You and love You
like the others in the normal way!
beloved, I love you!1
Oh Jesus, I am only wounding You. Let me
go. I'll rest in my misery, but I won't stop
honouring You and loving You.2
wait!
Lord, all of this3 is beyond my
understanding, it’s beyond me!
no, this is not beyond your
understanding, not anymore; beloved,4
five of My Wounds are wide open; I am
bleeding profusely; I am suffering; your
God is suffering; will you not glorify My
Body? five of My Wounds are open for
you to see what sorrow My creation is
giving Me;
I love you all in spite of your
wickedness, in spite of your failures, in
spite of your doubts, in spite of your
iniquity, in spite of your denials, in spite
1 I saw Jesus hurt by my words. I felt awful.
2 I wanted to go to bed and sleep out my awfulness.
3 The supernatural approach and all events to come.
4 Jesus ‘exploded’, showing me how He suffers.
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