Notebook 64 True Life in God 669 told the Russian priest that he was my birthday present from Jesus. His name is Fr. Vassili which is the male name of my name, Vassula. The other sign that unity will be brought by Russia was that when I asked the Lord to choose an opening prayer, He chose the prayer of a Russian priest: Fr Sergius Bulgakov. He had asked me to open at random and I did, and my eyes saw first this prayer, that I wrote on December 29, 1989. Here it is again: “O Jesus Christ, our Lord and Saviour, thou didst promise to abide with us always. Thou dost call all Christians to draw near and partake of Thy Body and Blood. But our sin has divided us and we have no power to partake of Thy Holy Eucharist together. We confess this our sin and we pray thee, forgive us and help us to serve the ways of reconciliation according to Thy Will. Kindle our hearts with the fire of the Holy Spirit, give us the spirit of wisdom and faith, of daring and of patience, of humility and of firmness, of love and of repentance, through the prayers of the most blessed Mother of God, and of all the saints. Amen.”) February 2, 1993 (I called the Lord but I could not hear Him. It made me sad. Suddenly the silence was broken by the sound of His step. 1 And He spoke to me, reproaching me.) 1Figurative. My Spirit is upon you; day and night I have been waiting for you! 2 respect My rules! why do you hold back our encounters? now you say, “how long will this last?” 3 when only a few minutes went by; whereas I, I have been waiting for you several days! until when will I put up with you? you say, your joy lies in being close to Me; wretched you are for good! puny little creature, do not forget who holds you on your feet; I have treated you kindly and I have been your Support; explain then to Me your absence! Give the poor and needy another chance! I delight in nothing else on earth than Your Presence! choose then to be with Me! I called you to My Heart, I have not called you to administration; But who will do the work? you have not admitted your sin! 4 Yes, I sinned for not keeping Your rules; and for not being faithful to Me, say it! and for not being faithful to You. say: I will praise my Lord and my soul will live for Him alone and I will serve Him alone, and my lips will sing for Him alone, and my heart will pay attention to Him alone, and now, my heart will beat for Him alone; amen; 5 2For three days I did not go to Him in this way. 3His absence and His silence. 4The Lord was more severe here than before. 5 I repeated it after Him.
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